Wednesday, January 23, 2019

I meant to put this out earlier but life really got the best of me with work and school but I can't keep having excuses. I need to make this a priority because I truly feel the urge to share my stories with those reading.
So Hi, my name is Rachel and I promise to you I am going to be writing more and sharing the experiences I'm going through and my journey.
I started this thing last year where I choose a word and talk about how that word is affecting me and well, I did it once and then never again so I felt starting it up again was the perfect way to introduce this new topic I am going to be completely open about on this blog from here on out.
For about 3 years now I have struggled to find where I fit when it comes to religion. Prior to 2016 I didn't really care about religion at all if we are being honest. However this post isn't going to be my testimony, that post is going to take a lot of time because I want to get every detail of what I went through to get where I am now perfect for you guys. I feel as though my story is very unique and that some people could really need to hear it and know that they can do the same as me and get through anything with God.
Right now I want to talk about this month and all it has done for me. It is crazy to think about seriously how much I have grown this month. I've never been this happy in my entire life, and I know this is because I started my new life with God. On January 6th, 2019 I got baptized and it was seriously the best day of my entire life. If I could go back to one day in my life whenever I could it would be that day. The day started out rough though. I was terrified. I knew Satan was making everything harder and I tried so hard to keep him out of my thoughts but it was one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with. My coping method with stress or anxiety is to make jokes so to everyone around me I was cracking jokes about backing out and not doing it, but inside of me I was dead serious. I really didn't know how it would feel once getting baptized, I just knew I wanted to be so dedicated to God and I wasn't going to let Satan get the best of me on such an important day of my life. So I walked into church and signed up to get baptized and although the entire service I didn't really know what was coming, I felt something in my heart. I knew this is what I needed. Once the service was over we walked to the table and grabbed a shirt and the most horrendous gym shorts that made me look like a twelve year old boy in p.e. Never-the-less I got dressed and walked outside already shaking. I'm not sure if I was shaking from nerves or excitement, but it was probably both. Oh did I mention I am terrified of water so the idea of being dunked under water was not ideal to me either. But the time came. I stepped up to the pool, took my shoes off, and began to climb in. The minute I got into the pool I burst into tears. My amazing friend Danielle who offered to be in there with me took me into her arms as the tears started pouring down my face. So many thoughts were rushing through my head but I just prayed to God to be with me in this moment and give me the strength to do this. Finally I calmed down and put my hands crossed on my chest and closed my eyes. Suddenly I was being dipped into water and as I was coming out the best way I can describe it was there was a bright white light above me as if God was standing right over me. It was the best feeling in the world. Indescribable.
Faith has changed me for the better in so many ways. I have someone in my life who loves me no matter what. Someone I can lean on when I am feeling weak or anxious.
I am so blessed. That is the best way I can put it. God grabbed my attention in a time when I needed him so badly.

"God will make a way, when there seems to be no way."

I cannot wait to share more stories with all of you but I felt like this was the perfect start.
Thank you for reading. If you have any stories you'd like to share please do! I want to hear any amazing thing God has done for you!


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